March Twenty Seventh, two thousand and four
Listening: Ben Kweller, Falling

i would first like to say cheers to...
BLAKE, HAPPY BELATED B DAY, THE BIG 19 and..
JACKIE, THE WOMAN OF THE HOUR, HAPPY SWEET 16!

its so insane thinking that some of us are 16. 16 is such an empowering age, so much is opened, and it just makes you think and wonder what is next. 15 seems so young, and blan. well, i think every year is a big step and its mostly because i anticipate it soooo much! anyways, today is jackies b day party, where we are going to Boston Pizza, and then going back to her house...wait..didnt we go to Bostons Pizza for soojins party? i cant remember, we'll see.

last night was a lot of fun!! you know when you figure out all these really cool plans, and if everything works out, it will be the best night of your life, but during the process of planning, you have this sick feeling that something will come up and it won't work, well that explains how i felt last night.

THE PLAN OF THE NIGHT
3:00-5:00, soojin and i plam rides to get to the last class for the concert, i go on msn, talk to julian and mike about if were meeting up and stuff
5:30-6:30 skating at the new arena, its niiiiiiiiiiiice! automatic doors! sweet!
7:00-8:00 prep for concert, so in otherwords, changing out of skating clothes, and head down to georgian college, for some good ol' local musac!
8:00---whatever time it ends at concert, meet up with mike and julian, listen to some gooooood music, chillax, all is fair.

THAT WAS THE PLAN! and almost ALL went to plan! the only thing that didnt work out was that we had to leave earlier. because soojin didnt tell her mom where she was going, and just told her she was studying at my house, she couldnt be too late. so the band i wanted to see the most Cardiac, played last, we could only see one song. but it was still good, and im sure they will come back again. the bands that played were...
Wheels on the bus
some band i cant remember
the mercy of inspiration, REALLY good!!
cardiac, REALLY GOOD TOO!!


ok well im off, going to value soon with the skating crew, going to buy some stuff for our skating show, which is going to be SOOOOO GOOD!

your stamped sam*

March Twenty fourth, two thousand and four
Listening: At the Drive in- Intiation

ahhh yes, yes back in the school! this is about the third time i have tried to write a blog, but just got lazy and stopped. i usually dont get pass here, a little introduction of what is going on, to give you a glimpse, a taste, but not the whole bowl. there isnt much going on with my life, nothing i feel like talking about. i feel i have changed i just dont feel like pouring my heart onto the interenet. though you cant just go looking for blogs, i just dont feel like writing everything out here. not that i dont enjoy writing, i still do. i write a lot more on real paper, sometimes things just pop in my head and i will base a whole story on it. it just works that way, more than ever right now i want to become a writer, a novelist that would be the coolest...maybe i will be a psychiatrist who writes books, and as a hobby figureskates and volunteers at the local animal shelter!! yes that will be it! its settled!!

my soulmate and i are getting really suspcious of our odd similiarities.
Explainations on why we are creeped out by our ways
1. we both have an obessesion with cereal. its extreme, we both have the same feelings on it, and the ways you MUST eat it
2. we both chew our pens the same way, in the same order, with the same pens
3. we both think its cool to analyze how we do things, like pouring milk into cereal and the art of chewing pens
4. we both hate dingy grey soled socks.

well, i have to get going, i have all this ionic,and polyatomic and molecular compound stuff to study for!! good ol' science, isnt it just grand? no. catch yah on the east side

SAM*

p.s. found this song, well i didnt find it, mike sent it to me and i love it, reminds me of my relationship with adam, though im not this extreme. just the phone, its fitting.

when i told you not to bother to holler
your telephone's the one
that helped
me wrap
the cord
around your neck
you know you're beautiful
when you're dead

At the Drive in - Intiation

March twenty first, also known as THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING!!
Listening: Something Corporate, Konstantine and Incubus, here in my room

i would first like to say...
HAPPY FIRST DAY OF SPRING EVERYONE!!
ah, and because its the first day, im going snowboarding, OH BOY! the irony! its funny that we have snow in the spring, while when winer officialy starts, there is already been a lot of snow, so these seasons starting days do nothing. UGH IM DUMB!...of course these are international dates that arent based on the climate in canada alone...i feel dumb. sue me.

i think im going to name my daughter, Konstantine..pronounced CON-STIN-TINE. its a pretty name, though she might be concious of it, oh well, i dont want her to go through what i do in school, having 5 Sam's per class, its insane and unnecessary.

so since this is my blog, and according to my title, 'a short tofu love story' i guess i should mention my latest love affair....so without any other dawdaling..

I MET MY FREAKIN' SOULMATE, AND ITS JUST SO SAD
Drew, my soulmate. were soulmates because were so much alike. no really its quite freaky, he is like the male equavialent to me.
we both like...
>the exactly same music, mars volta, radiohead even the beatles
>gary roberts is his fav player, how could that be! his own parents dont even like him!
>english is his fav subject, followed by history
>we both play independent sports
>saved by the bell and conan are his fav shows, crap saved by the bell?
>orange is his fav colour
ugh..and to add to all his strangeness, he has a brown shag, ughhhhhhhhh. so we cant be lovers, because were too much alike. only best friends, to go shopping and to swap music tapes. oy. Lee says i should just make sweet, sweet love to him, thanks lee! that is not an option. but oh well, i dont really feel like basking in my own self pity, like i usually would.

you probably never really thought about my blog title 'a short tofu love story', and if you did, cheers to you! and since i never explained it before, i will now, there is no better time than the present. so since my life is mostly revolved around the ppl in it, its fitting that is a love story. i love my friends dearly, and my obesessive crushes also are put into account. its only a story because its only one stage of my life. one chapter, or lets hope so, i mind as well just die now if this is going to be my whole life, oy. the tofu is tricky to ecxplain. there are two ways you can look at it. tofu is a substance that takes on the taste of whatever it is with, and by itself, its boring and blan. so this could mean in my title that..
a) tofu means that my writing changes its mood day to day to describe what im dealing with that day
b) my blogs are just a place for me to be like every other trend, and im just molding into what i THINK will be accepted, and that my love is just me trying to be cool
c) i just like tofu because im a vegetarian.

oh well, that was a longer explaination then what i had first imagined, oh well.

your tofu addict,
sam*

ST PATRICKS DAY! WOOT WOOT
Listening: Dashboard Confessional- So Beautiful

hey, hey, hey happy st patricks days all of you, yes and you! if i was in ireland, i would be drinking some green beer and doing the chicken dance, but since, im in canada, and underage, im at home, drinking some apple cider, ha. anyways, been awhile since i updated so im going to give you the nutshell of everything.

SUNDAY!
ashley, and jackie came home, chillaxed in my CLEAN (emphasis on clean..heh) room, then we went to zehrs, but some hairdye, and other goodies. we came back to my house, realized i was lacking the proper hair dying necessities (a hair "pick" and comb") so then decided to go to ashs. we dyed my hair two colours, reddy/orange, and super dark brown/black. it looks ok (sort of a tabby cat deal), i dont particularly like it, but its slowly fading so its fine. then we cut ashleys hair. i dont know why she would let us, neither one of has excelled in hair styling, i wouldnt have let us. and she shouldnt have. we cut it too short. but straight, whihc in the end, is all that matters. then around 10 30, after we were all tired, jackie made us cut her. lesson learned: dont cut hair when drowsy, jackie will testify. we cut jackies hair all uneven, and she sort of had a bowlcut/ mushroom cut thing going on. it wasnt that great. so in the end..we had..
SAM> girl with orange and black streaks, hello halloween.
ASHLEY> girl with hair too short then anticipated
JACKIE> girl with a mans bowl cut
MICHELLE> to wussy to let us do anything!!

MONDAY
on this day, i finally gave in, and called adam to ask him about this trip. he said it was a lot of fun, and that he didnt meet any new friends YES! we talked for like an hour and half, just talking about what we did and stuff, i was so happy to talk to him, a week is really a long time! then i went to ashleys where we all just chilled and did whatever...monday was such a relaxing day, oh yah! i also had skating, finished doing our amateur coaching routine.

TUESDAY so yesterday!
at 7 30, i went to the movies with adam,ashley and james, so it was like a double date. i skipped skating, which now i feel bad about, because i skipped last practise oh well, its march break! AND i wanted to see adam :) we saw "The Secret Window" OH MY GOODNESS! it was horrible! but i still had fun, lol hehe! i love going to the movies with adam!

Reasons why The MOVIE sucked, but totally worth going to see!!
1. the dog died :(, on the flip side, this gave me a reason to cry on adams shoulder, and him to be sympathetic towards me!
2. really greusome parts with the deaths, i could hide my eyes into adam
3. insanely boring, on retrospect...i practically fell asleep on adam :)
4. really confusing, on the other hand, i think adam enjoyed telling me everything that was going on!

well, im off. i think i will call adam, or maybe read a book. anything, just dont want to continue writing this blog!

yours dearly,
SAM*, who is love-struck...har dee har har

March Fourteenth, two thousand and four
Listening: All American Rejects- Too Far Gone

its weird that im listening to aar, i havent listened to them in such a long time. this is going to be a super boring blog, and im not even joking. you are probably now thinking "hey, she said that last time, it was pretty darn good" but in reality, this will blow. today was an exceptionaly boring day, and now i regret that i wasted a perfectly good day. so now, as a promise to all the march break gods peering down at me from the party heavens above, as they shun me for wasting today, i vow to do something interesting for every day left of it. some may think im overreacting, 'hey calm down, its only the second day, you still have another 8 days to do the coolest things ever' but im going to look back, when i have homework up to my ears and i will say
"DAHH!!! i wasted that day 3 months ago! i could use it now!" today sucked because i didnt do anything with friends, they were all busy...

ashley> worked, did something with james (an assumption)
leanna> something with david (an assumption), church
jackie> church, youth group dealio with leanna
michelle>worked
soojin> worked..out, did a piano
sam> baked burnt,blan cookies...that now gave her indigestion...
^^so the conclusion that i draw from that are...

1.i need to get a job, not only could it be the most socialbly part of my day, i could actually make money!
2.get a boyfriend. it would give me something to do (ahhh, get your mind out of the gutter to do WITH)
3.take up an instrument. hey, i dis-owned the piano way back, i cant go back. and the recorder blows
4.take up a religion, maybe i wont be such a basket case.

so maybe i will take up buddism, ha! ...ugh, im being sacreligious. moving on...hahah! you know what that was, an awkward silence. where whatever the person said was so outrageously dumb no one has anything to say, and the saddest part is that i said something super dumb, and i was even embarassed to respond! oy oy oy, what am i coming to. if anyone was to read this they would think i had multiple personalities. luckily, no one reads these, which i suppose is for the best.

you know what i think is the funniest darn tootin' thing is? how i listed what all my friends did, and i didnt even mention what elyse was doing. that just goes to show how much i talk to her now. which obviously isnt much. not that we were ever super close (yah, we practically fought over a guy, we cool!) i still used to call her, and do stuff. its because she hangs out with different ppl, so maybe i just assume she is doing something with them, or maybe its the fact that i have no will to call her. i would rather stay home then do something with her? actually, thats not true. i wouldnt, i would be surprised if i do something with her during the march break. we will just have to see...

well i think im off, but just as a last note. listen to the song, Dont Leave Me by The All American Rejects, and listen to the gino beats in the beginning!! HAHA!! i never noticed them before, LISTEN TO THEM, RECOGNIZE THEM and just RESPECT them.

yours truly,
sam who was apart of the graham scam.

March twelve, two thousand and four
Listening: Radiohead- Just

today was a complete picture frenzy day. we took so many freakin pictures it was insane! so i suppose its only right that i explain WHY we took so many pics so here she blows...

soojin,michelle,jackie and i went to the mandarin where we had so much food its not even funny. i had some good potatoes, i go JUST for the potatoes. after we were full (to the rim, hardeeh har har mich, refer to your first blog) michelle,jackie and i went downtown. it was so much fun, i love downtown so much everything is so old and vintage, and tehre are so many interesting ppl down there. anyways, we went to the salavation army where i bought a vest and a gym bag, then we went to Big Johns where i bought a Dashboard EP, its pretty rare, WHAT A CATCH! from there we went to the library where we took a lot of funny pics, if i ever find how to post pics I WILL FROM THE LIBRARY! then i went home to find out i missed skating, SHUCKS!

tonight, or last night, if you want to get all technical on me we went to michelles house. me,ash,james,leanna,jackie and christina, it was really fun. we took more pics, 107 to be precise and even right now michelle is sending me them all, the transfer is taking so freakin long, about an hour. and were not even done yet, but the pics are totally worht the wait.

everyone is going on and on and more on(ing) about the passion of the christ, "its a must see", "will take your breath away". i probably wont go see it, and if i do, its only to see if all this hype is true. its going to be in the theatres for like 6 months, so i have no rush to see it, just like Titanic, and the lord of the rings triology (whihc i still havent seen!). i should of JUST read the Return of the King novel, so i wouldnt have pressure to go see it, so i suppose i should JUST read the bible too, ha! but we'll see, maybe my next blog will be me saying how much I LOVED, the passion! (by the way, i will never refer to the movie just as "the passion" it sounds too much like a soap opera) also, i think there is a hockey movie called THE PASSION...hm

well i think i will call it quits, i have nothing else to rant or type about...maybe i will add a few more regulars (something i always write about)
>ahh adam is coming home soon!!
>ahhh dashboard is coming to town!!
>ahh i hate school!!
there my blog is officially complete

your damsel in distress,
SAM*

AS A SIDE DISH...
damsel comes from the latin word "domina" which means mistress...
yah, i am a latin nerd, suck her up!

March eleventh, two thousand and four
Listening: the mars volta: this apparatus must be unearthed

this is going to be on those blogs where i despartely try to scrounge up something amusing to say because i did nothing that day and/or adam did nothing to strike my attention. so..with that said, where should i begin.

i would first like to point out that i surprisingly did pretty well (in my opinion) on my science test, finishing with a 74 YES! i will totally take that, and hey thats from mr mahedy! unfortunately, i failed the first part of my english test. what i thought i totally aced, i got 4/12 LOL...ah. me and 2 other football players (Justin,Graham) failed. i love it how we played into the stereotypes so well. and how the disturbed, recluse kid (PIPES!) gets 11/12. though stereotypes are supposed to be soooo bad, i cant help but laugh at them. though, in reality life doesnt have that many. like at our school, we dont have those hard-core nerds that you see with the pocket protectors, or the jocks, in the "jocks hall"...wearing...jocks. in the real world, it just doesnt work like that. yah, sure we have the hard rocker punks, the poser punks, and the preppy punks but i would so rather have the freakin nerds! ah...i will have to work on that!

so its the march break, and im so happy. i need a break so bad. to recuoperate from my hectic week, and when i say hectic, of course i mean Adamless. though im glad he has been away, ive been so adam crazy that i really needed to get away from him. and i feel this break may give me the closure i need. or maybe not, and maybe this distance is just making me more obesessed and all of my feelings are just building up and up and will eventually explode like some cheap volcano science fair project! but we'll see, i will talk to him this monday, he will recap his trip, and from that, we will see where things lead.

today, our dashboard confessional tickets were bought YES! were going for sure, im SOOO happy! ahh, this will be a concert of a lifetime. you are aware that i am now going to start a concert countdown starting...RIGHT NOW!
ahhhhhhh, only 2 months and 4 days until dashboard confessional

well im off to sleep.
and i will leave you with a quote..
Sleep: Those little slices of death, how i loate them
edgar allen poe

the captain's daughter (a.k.a. SAM)

March tenth, two thousand and four
Listening: Weezer- El Scorcho

what a boring day I had today, so this will most likely be a boring blog. majority of ppl (so michelle) will stop reading right now because they wont want to waste there time reading it. Of course, you might keep reading it to prove my synopsis wrong, its really up to you. its like how when someone finds out that its impossible to lick your elbow, they will try to do it. its just the way the cookie crumbles. that was sort of like my relationship (or lackof) with sean. besides his stunnigly good looks and inquisitive music taste, a part of me liked him for his mysterious shyness. i probably wanted to be the girl to unfold him or to open him up. ugh, leah was that girl ay. to prove everyone wrong that he was super shy with girls. crap. i didnt work.

well i bought dashboard tickets today! well, not yet, but tonight. my mom wont buy them so jackies mom is buying them for soojin and i. they are 27, cheaper than all american rejects, but more than i make in a month. so i dont know how im going to pay for them...rob a bank? this is there debut in canada (other than that time a few years back when they opened for Weezer..) IM SOOOO EXCITED! they are going to rock, this will probably be one of the best concerts that ive been too, not that i have a huge archives of attended concerts on my back.

school is being pretty lame. its not me, its the system. for instance, why must i have a crappy science teacher? i dont understand what were doing right now, something about ionic charges and polynomial (maybe thats math, i dont know!) and blair and simon have no patience to teach me. yikes. also, english is really hard, though i love it to death its still hard. or maybe challenging would be better? i got an 85 on my animal experimentation essay, which im totally thrilled and surprised about. i got a 67 on what i thought was good writing, and i thought my essay was crap i got an 85. i dont get it.

ugh...and to add to all my unknown science equations, and my sucky writing...i think i like garrett. well, i didnt think so, but soojin informed me, and it makes sense. i always talk to him in english, and if someone studied me walking into english and seeing his empty desk you would see the disappointment on my face. maybe we have a love/hate relationship. lol, i love thinking up theories to explain my stupidity, or maybe the reason i am stupid is because i analyze everything and have theories for everything? its weird that i like him though, i am under his hypnotic spell. he just stares at me and its as if i get sucked in deeper and deeper. into what i dont know, just my feelings get stronger and stronger? despite his hypnotic skills it doesnt even compare to my feelings for adam. those are undeniable, while i will probably tomorrow deny my crush on garrett....UGH! even right now im denying it. i just stopped writing for 5 mins and i just re read what i wrote and im already regretting my feelings. oh well. he will come to school tomorrow and say something dumb and i will get annoyed with him and hate him. adam will come back on sunday, we will talk, all my obessesive powers will once again fully be geared towards him, and all will be well.

sam like to jam (verb)

March ninth, two thousand and four
Listening: At the Drive-in: One Armed Scissor

You know what i love? not writing for 2 weeks and then having to come back and recapping all the crap that happened...so here we go kids!

2 Friday's ago
(yah, its cool to dwell in the past!)
so two fridays ago, adam and i were supposed to go to the movies. we were going to see the movie Twisted, for some scary good times. we talked on the phone for like an 1 and half, about what movie to see and other things. so he had to go eat some dinner, so we went our seperate audiotorial ways (phone ways?) anyways, about 45 mins before we were supposed to leave and calls me up and says...

adam: ugh, hey sam. we have some er bad news.
sam: ok....
adam: yah, im not coming tonight. im going to play some hockey
(i lecture him on ditching me, he apologizes numerous times)
sam: YOUR DITCHING ME FOR HOCKEY!?! HOCKEY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME!?
adam: what. nooooo, you and hockey are equally important to me in my life.
sam: ok have fun...bye!
so that was that. instead we went to tim hortons and chillax at ashleys house. fair enough.

Last Friday!
we went to soojins sweet super sixteenth birthday siesta! we went to east side marios (hey, budda bing, budda boom!) i had some uber cool portobello mushroom ravioli!! YUM! it was really good, and i had the leftovers for breakfast. it twas all grand.

Last SUNDAY
Nothing really happened sunday, except for the fact that adam left for florida!! hes gone down south (get your mind out of the gutter!) im actually making it through science, im actually listening. but he has one of my notes, an important note so it doesnt look like im going to be studying much. Anyways, he is coming back this sunday, and i cant wait!! i hope he has fun though, soak in the sun and the excitement of disney world (i could totally write a promo for there) more importantly, he is supposed to bring me back something. but he will probably will be lame and forget, or just choose not to. ah, we will see.

MONDAY
(or yesterday)
i had a curling party with the school, where we did some serious, hard core curling and ate pizza and other munchies. then i went to skating at 6 50 until 7 50 where we worked on our amateur coaching routine. (oh by the way, were doing moulin rouge (voulez vous que chez avec moi ce soir?) and charlies angels). i went straight from the arena to georgian college to see Lee's band play, End the Era. They were SO good! and they should have won, hands down! hahahah, there was this little "bear creek mosh pit" and it was so wild and funny. i didnt go in it, i would have been clobbered, it was only guys.

ugh today charles (yah unlike some ppl, i use names) said all this crap about me and adam and how dave is happy that we are breaking apart (though he probably could care less, or is glad that my life is screwed up) and charles also said that concerning how i was done with adam and dave "oh now i can bang her broooo" UGH!!!!! well with that said,...

im going to be a good scholar and study for english and leave this recapped basin...COOL!

sam the pickled yam*